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Got a couple packages today.

The first one I opened was a box that had my Castlevania set in it. I'll get to listening to the CDs later, and probably burning them for Pierre and Samantha.

And the second one... well, the "Kathryn Steeves" signature gave it away.

I got my games back. Finally. They were sent on the 30th of September, which strikes me as strange, considering she was suppposed to have sent them back in early August, but I don't care about that anymore. All my games are in good shape. I have the following back:

- Lunar 2 (I was mistaken in saying she had my Lunar 1. I should have known better, because Lunar 1 was stolen in 2000 while I was on the Washington)
- Tales of Destiny 1, a game I bought just before heading north
- Tales of Destiny 2; thank goodness I didn't win that auction.
- Chrono Cross
- Castlevania: Symphony of the Night (oops!)
- Final Fantasy Tactics
- Megaman X4

So how do I feel about this?

Very, very depressed.

I'm glad I got my games back; don't get me wrong. Part of what's causing this is what I had to go through to get these games.

But the big issue is that this is final now; a once good friendship, one that caused me to drive to Canada to see this person, is officially over. I'll never talk to her again - ESPECIALLY with the way she hides - and with as close as we once were, that hurts, still, even after everything. I want those good times back!

I hate her. I really do; she betrayed my best friend's trust. But those memories won't go away. The stand-up routines I would do for her in her bedroom, meeting her parents, playing cards with her Erin and her friend, driving back from Sackville with her passed out on me, playing Seisen on a real SNES and joking as our party got smashed down to TWO people, and everything else about the trip that I'll never get back, seeing as how I'm no longer friends with her OR Vicki; having milkshakes in the greasy spoon, fighting over my green pillow, and just the exilaration of driving through a wonderful place, a place I could see myself living in.

Talking to Cammi, she said she wouldn't want the memories back, as to her, they weren't "real". I can't disagree, but I still know that I shared a wonderful friendship while it lasted. I loved that girl, for better or worse, unconditionally.

And the finality that it's officially over now, we've officially cut ties, really hit me now. And it's killing me.

I'll get over it; don't worry about that. But the rest of my day's probably gonna suck.

As for the duplicate games, I'm sending Lunar 2 to Sara Jaye. Anyone need a Greatest Hits copy of SOTN?


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Oct. 11th, 2005 09:50 pm (UTC)
It's not the memories I wouldn't want back. It's the friendship. It crumbled. It's ruined. It wouldn't be the same having it back now.

I do wish this had never happened, however.
Oct. 11th, 2005 09:52 pm (UTC)
I don't have my own copy of SOTN, so if nobody else pops up who desperately wants it... >.>
Oct. 12th, 2005 03:02 am (UTC)
:: jacks SOTN from you ::

Oct. 12th, 2005 03:16 am (UTC)
*jacks it from you*

Oct. 11th, 2005 09:53 pm (UTC)
Meh...I can understand how you feel. Although I wasn't as close to her as you were, as I told you, I wish all this stuff had never happened...ah, well. What's done is done, and I suppose there's nothing we can really do...
Oct. 11th, 2005 09:54 pm (UTC)
And...well. I don't know what she thinks of me now, we just kind of drifted apart. I was never as close to her as either of you, but I miss the conversations we used to have.

And having never really ended a close friendship like that, with such good memories to look back on, I'd be lying if I said I understood how you feel.

But even if I can't really comprehend what you're going through at the moment, you have my sympathies. *hugs*
Oct. 11th, 2005 10:05 pm (UTC)
...Wow. Rosa...


I mean, we lived in the same province, so to me, it's like...

Oct. 11th, 2005 10:12 pm (UTC)
Aren't you two quite far apart, though? She lives near Moncton; don't you live on the West?
Oct. 11th, 2005 11:32 pm (UTC)
...How did you guess?
Oct. 12th, 2005 08:22 am (UTC)
I remember you mentioning it loosely a while back; the only reason I remember is because I noted it while driving through, like "Doesn't Sorakh live close to here?"
Oct. 16th, 2005 10:46 pm (UTC)
...I don't recall. -.-
Oct. 11th, 2005 10:32 pm (UTC)
Awww i'm sorry, Chris. :(
I hope you feel better soon as you can.
Oct. 11th, 2005 10:33 pm (UTC)
I don't really have anything to say worth hearing, except that I regret all this bull ever happening.
Oct. 11th, 2005 10:47 pm (UTC)
I never talked to her, but I know how losing a friend feels [though it's more like they just...dropped off the face of the earth].
I'm so sorry this happened. Hope you feel better soon ;_; *hug*
Oct. 12th, 2005 03:05 am (UTC)
:D I've experienced the same...and it was someone who made me basically say the "L" word to them...I really love this person...but in the end, I guess I was just kidding myself. This person I guess just got satisfaction from hearing me say those words to them.
Oct. 11th, 2005 10:53 pm (UTC)
%*$&$&! You play Tales of games! >:0
Oct. 12th, 2005 12:51 am (UTC)
At least now I don't have to burn an ISO of ToDII/ToE >>

It always sucks ending a relationship, especially one like that. Even if it is/was plationic, or romantic.
Oct. 12th, 2005 02:59 am (UTC)
Seems you and I both have problems w/ women named Vicky (Or in your case, Vicki)...

Oct. 12th, 2005 10:36 am (UTC)

That really, really sucks. T_T

...I'm so bad at talking. *shot*

Oct. 12th, 2005 06:19 pm (UTC)
Strange, is it not, how a friendship can cause more pain than a romance when it comes to a close? My condolences, 'Bus. At a time like this, it is best to remember the other person as they were, not as they are. That way, you can keep the memories worth keeping.
Oct. 12th, 2005 06:45 pm (UTC)
I wish I could. The problem is that when I do think of the past, the present comes in and fucks it all up.
Oct. 12th, 2005 07:53 pm (UTC)
True. There is that. Time, fortunately, might not erase these things, but it does soften their edges. Give it a couple of years.
Oct. 13th, 2005 01:15 am (UTC)
Hello Superbus~
The past is true like the future, but think about it. By the time you read this post the future has come and it has become time to look back to the past and up the future again.
Oct. 13th, 2005 09:31 am (UTC)
Dude, you're gonna have to repeat that in English, it's too early for me to be getting that deep.
Oct. 13th, 2005 07:26 pm (UTC)
What I mean is that the future is also the present and past. The Present is the past, but not the future. The past is only the past.
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