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Got a couple packages today.

The first one I opened was a box that had my Castlevania set in it. I'll get to listening to the CDs later, and probably burning them for Pierre and Samantha.

And the second one... well, the "Kathryn Steeves" signature gave it away.

I got my games back. Finally. They were sent on the 30th of September, which strikes me as strange, considering she was suppposed to have sent them back in early August, but I don't care about that anymore. All my games are in good shape. I have the following back:

- Lunar 2 (I was mistaken in saying she had my Lunar 1. I should have known better, because Lunar 1 was stolen in 2000 while I was on the Washington)
- Tales of Destiny 1, a game I bought just before heading north
- Tales of Destiny 2; thank goodness I didn't win that auction.
- Chrono Cross
- Castlevania: Symphony of the Night (oops!)
- Final Fantasy Tactics
- Megaman X4

So how do I feel about this?

Very, very depressed.

I'm glad I got my games back; don't get me wrong. Part of what's causing this is what I had to go through to get these games.

But the big issue is that this is final now; a once good friendship, one that caused me to drive to Canada to see this person, is officially over. I'll never talk to her again - ESPECIALLY with the way she hides - and with as close as we once were, that hurts, still, even after everything. I want those good times back!

I hate her. I really do; she betrayed my best friend's trust. But those memories won't go away. The stand-up routines I would do for her in her bedroom, meeting her parents, playing cards with her Erin and her friend, driving back from Sackville with her passed out on me, playing Seisen on a real SNES and joking as our party got smashed down to TWO people, and everything else about the trip that I'll never get back, seeing as how I'm no longer friends with her OR Vicki; having milkshakes in the greasy spoon, fighting over my green pillow, and just the exilaration of driving through a wonderful place, a place I could see myself living in.

Talking to Cammi, she said she wouldn't want the memories back, as to her, they weren't "real". I can't disagree, but I still know that I shared a wonderful friendship while it lasted. I loved that girl, for better or worse, unconditionally.

And the finality that it's officially over now, we've officially cut ties, really hit me now. And it's killing me.

I'll get over it; don't worry about that. But the rest of my day's probably gonna suck.

As for the duplicate games, I'm sending Lunar 2 to Sara Jaye. Anyone need a Greatest Hits copy of SOTN?

Comments

sorakh28
Oct. 11th, 2005 11:32 pm (UTC)
...How did you guess?
superbus
Oct. 12th, 2005 08:22 am (UTC)
I remember you mentioning it loosely a while back; the only reason I remember is because I noted it while driving through, like "Doesn't Sorakh live close to here?"
sorakh28
Oct. 16th, 2005 10:46 pm (UTC)
...I don't recall. -.-